The First year I got used, but all the same

The first year I got used, but all the same missed on the grandmother and the native house. The grandmother always visited me and the first months took me on target and a vacation. I did not know, but mother too lived in Penza and when I have learnt, I was delighted and often called to it. In two months in October, the tenth, I have gone to call to mother, the grandmother any more did not take away me, because its health has worsened. I have called once again to mother and have asked, as there the grandmother. But mother with tears on eyes has told to me, that she has died, I have asked again it and have told, that it has joked, but she has answered negatively. I have hanged up and have departed from watch in a corridor and have very strongly begun to cry, washing the soul was ill, she still never for fourteen years so was not ill, I was in a shock, I longed, grieved, cried and recollected those years which we have spent side by side. When I have learnt, what number there will be funeral, I have gone to the director and have asked of the permission to go there and to follow her to the grave, but in the answer I have heard "was not present", I was afflicted and have begun to cry to such answer, I have taken offence at the director, but to run there was no, I was the obedient pupil and remained in children's home, I well remember date and number of death my favourite бабули - November, ninth, 2001.